Sunday, October 18, 2009

Feelings vs. Truth

In my absence from the blogging world these past week or so, I have been under a great deal of stress with things that are completely out of our control. However, even when we know that they are out of our control...they can still take control of us.

As hard I fought against the stress of the situations, the discouragement and minor depression began to creep in. Add the fact that we didn't see sunshine in Arkansas for over 2 weeks due to rain, rain, rain and very dark, dreary mood was getting very dark.

When I get this way, I don't want to talk to anyone but of course, life continue to move on whether you do or not. You will be put in places and situations that you HAVE to put on a "happy face", smile, talk, laugh and act like all is well with the world...when in fact...IT ISN'T. I find myself doing this and hiding behind a "happy face" so the world doesn't know my business.

If you have never allowed a situation of life to control you, discourage you or cause you to enter into some level of depression...then, you might take your loved ones actions personal when they are not meant to be. When we are with our loved ones, our family, in our own home...we tend to be ourselves without the phony facade. If your loved ones don't understand what you are going through...they might be offended by your actions or lack of.

By Friday, I wasn't smiling but functioning day by day. When I was alone, I was deep in thought and the war was raging in my mind between what I was "feeling" and the truth.

I went to Jonesboro to take my oldest son, Brandon, his jacket and shirt he left at the house earlier in the week and this gave me plenty of time alone to just think.

During this entire "dry" time in my life, I have filled my mind with praise and worship music, prayer and some reading of the Word. I can't focus very well during this time to spend much time, I don't. I would go to bed at night with my iPod playing through my headphones...filling my sleep with praise and worship music. However, I would wake up the next day in the same "funk" as I went to sleep in.

Driving back from Jonesboro, I had a notebook with me, so I wrote down words that described how I was "feeling" that very moment. I started to scan the page and post it but too lazy to go do, here is what I wrote down. As I was writing the words down on the left side of the page of how I was feeling, my thoughts would immediately go opposite and I wrote these down on the right side of the page.

Physical vs. Spiritual...Feelings vs. Truth

Beat down / My joy comes from the Lord

Great sadness / My hope is in Him

Overwhelmed / I put my trust in Him

Defeated / When I am weak, He is strong

Angry / Be angry and sin not


Anxious / Be anxious about nothing

Minor Depression / I am more than a conqueror

Doubtful / Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean
not unto your own understanding

Tired & Drained / I will give you rest

Alone / I will never leave you nor forsake you

Emotionally dry / He is the fountain of living water

As my flesh was screaming out my weaknesses, my spirit was screaming out the Truth...God's Word.

Did I immediately feel better? No!

I sought the advice of a very dear friend, wise counsel, godly person that afternoon and they confirmed what I already knew. That there will be times in our lives that we go through dry spells, when we feel alone, that God is not there, when our prayers aren't being heard, when we feel there is no hope for our situation BUT, that is not the TRUTH. The truth is...God is actively working in my life, my family, my situation and He is still right there by my side and at times, He is carrying me when I am to weary to walk on my own.

This time, I didn't feel that my prayers weren't being answered or that God wasn't there with me but, I knew I was in a dry season. This is the biggest difference that I've seen in this time and other attacks from the enemy in the past.

It was confirmed to me that I knew the truth and I was refusing to buy into the lies of the enemy during this period of my life. Now, I just have to wait until my flesh grabs a hold of the truth.

By the way, I am feeling much better starting on Saturday. I still have my "quiet" moments but the joy of the Lord is returning to my flesh.

Nehemiah 8:10b
Do not grieve, for the joy of the LORD is your strength."

Psalm 33:20
We wait in hope for the LORD; he is our help and our shield

Proverbs 3:5
Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.

II Corinthians 12:9
But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.

Psalm 39:7
"But now, Lord, what do I look for? My hope is in you.

Philippians 4:6
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.

Hebrews 13:5b
God has said, "Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you."

John 7:38

Whoever believes in me, as the Scripture has said, streams of living water will flow from within him."

Romans 8:37
No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.

Philippians 4:13
I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.

Please pray for me as the stress has begun to affect my heart again. It is skipping beats more frequently and makes me tired easily.


Have a wonderfully blessed day!


  1. Sweetie, you are very much in my thoughts and prayers. I love you.

  2. Good approach!! Hope this week is refreshing and new for you.
    TN ((hugs)) coming your way!!

  3. Jennifer,

    Your message is heart-revealing. You said it all here: "he truth is...God is actively working in my life, my family, my situation and He is still right there by my side and at times, He is carrying me when I am to weary to walk on my own."

    I'm praying for you as you go through (and come out on the other side in the Name of Jesus) of this dry time in your life. I pray for the comfort, wisdom, peace and counsel of the HOLY SPIRIT OF GOD in all areas you are being faced with.

    Remain in HIM. Blessings and love!

  4. Oh Jennifer...I get that way sometimes & it is so hard because when we don't share with others (believers) then we can find ourselves listening to Satan & forgetting the truth, that sets us free. I know it is hard. So glad you started writing things down & seeing the Truth & seeing God's faithfulness. Greater is He that is in you than he that is in the world.

  5. Jenn ... the amazing thing about God is that He NEVER leaves us nor forsakes us. Many times our cloud moves and at times our cloud can be very very dark but it isn't God who moves,its the cloud. Stand on His promises ... He hasn't failed you yet...right? love ya, Laurie

    PS: You have pictures of your bloggy sisters on your sidebar ... but wheres the picture of me and Laurie ann and you? Do we need to go on another road trip for another picture?? lol

  6. That was a great thing to do. I will have to do that sometime. Another reason why it's good to know your scripture and have it memorized!

    You haven't entered the big M yet, have you? I have and I know my emotions are more difficult now.

  7. Praying for you and there is a huge difference between what we feel and the truth and I love that you highlighted that.

  8. Love the message! Really needed to hear that today. Thanks for the words of encourgement! Love your blog! I will be praying for you as well.
    Love ya and God Bless!

  9. Oh I understand completely! I get that way too. But I love the scriptures you posted. They are a great encouragement. May we remember to put our trust in God's truth and not our feelings. Thank you for that great reminder today! And I will definitely be praying about your heart. Hang in there my friend! God's not finished with you yet!

  10. Hey Sister, of course I'M JUST NOW seeing this. By this time you are out of this valley I'm sure (I pray). I love the way the Holy Spirit immediately brought THE TRUTH behind your thoughts. I love it!

    I'm proud of you for pressing through and not giving in to those feelings of despair. Even when you couldn't do anything else, you listened to worship music. That reminded me of Ephesians 6 when it says, "Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand."

    Love & hugs,


Thank you for stopping by today and sharing your heart felt thoughts with me. As we ride "Through the Storms of Life" together, chances are...your situation is different than mine. However, we serve the same awesome God, King of Kings who is in complete control and it all belongs to Him anyway...He wants to give you the very best. Be encouraged my friend, God loves you!

Thank you again for taking the time to visit me at "Through the Storms of Life".


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